Yesterday I used
a normal amount of SOE. I was worried about the leftover residue and conversions effects today, inspite of scrubbing
in the shower. But I decided to go ahead and continue using pheromones today as well. I tried telling myself that
yesterday's SOE wore off completely, and that there was no -none or -nol still floating around in my system today.
Even though I could still smell the SOE
Today I decided to get wild and experiment a LITTLE, at the same
time scared to death of trying something other than SOE. It was my meeting day with some people I like, and I
worried about funky smells.
So today's mix was as follows:
1/2 SOE gel + 3 drops Edge GEL + 3 drops lavender
-nol. Don't know if it's OD levels or not, but guessing not. I'm terrified of funky Edge, which is why I used
the outragous amount of gel, lol.
Report-wise it was pretty interesting. Nothing out of the ordinary, but now
that I'm attuned to the subtlety of pheros, little things seem to take on more importance. Or it could be possible
it's all in my head
While SOE alone gives a pretty friendly and easy vibe, today's mix seemed a little
different.
I applied the mones at 8:00am, and the meeting was around 9:30am. While everyone at the meeting was
still friendly, this time there was a little more serious edge. I don't know if respect is an apt term, but it was
more like earnestness. When I spoke, people were really listening and processing what I was saying. It was like
watching them compute my words in their brain. So repect isn't the right term, but more like attention and focus?
Not just on me but also the tasks.
I mentioned in an old post that this guy I like doesn't give me much eye
contact. While I wasn't the center of his universe at the meeting, I got more direct contact than usual. In fact, I
was a little surprised since he looked straight at me when I spoke. Not much, just couple of minutes, but for him
that's a lot. He usually looks at something else. Definitely progress I think
Or maybe I'm making too much of
nothing? It wasn't anything sexual, but it's like finally being recognized as a fellow human being.
But this
wasn't the most interesting part. About 2-3 hours after that, half of that meeting team consisting of one guy (not
the one I like) and four ladies decided to go over some reports in a conference room. We got a little more relaxed
and comfortable. As time progressed, the guy started teasing me!!! Nothing big, just cheeky small stuff. Maybe it
was the pheros, or maybe I was little more friendly and humorous myself, but it's a first for me. He didn't seem
to do that to others though he was equally comfortable and easy with them. It wasn't major enough to raise
eyebrows, but now and then he'd do something small like challenge my speed against his. Towards the end one lady
did give me a slightly funny look, but could it be since I was obviously enjoying myself too much? We finally ended
the session without anything else happening. I was excited as this is exactly what I wanted from pheros....a little
friendliness from the guys.
I was skeptical about pheros, but this gives me hope. I'm still not totally sold
yet, but I'm guessing I will be soon. Would this be considered an hit, or am I making a big deal of nothing?
My
only problem is I'm confused about the mix and I have no idea what worked. What was it that made the difference?
none from yesterday's SOE conversion, or did those 3 drops of Edge gel actually make a difference? I'm trying to
understand what played a different role than just plain SOE. I'm guessing the lavender isn't a factor since it's
the same -nol as SOE?
On another note, about 10 hours after I'm noticing a strange smell. It's not an obvious
stink, but
occasional wafts of skunky/vinegary oddness. What could it be?? I am shocked to think it could be
the Edge. Surely not from 3 drops of gel? I'd die if I ever applied full strength Edge.
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