well, no reactions to the pheromones, maybe i didn\'t put enough

but that\'s no matter:

my gf\'s mother\'s live-in boyfriend forbid me from ever seeing my gf again, and also from ever coming near her or he\'s calling the cops

the sad part is i didn\'t even do anything. but my gf\'s mom was speaking to my stupid mom and my stupid mom said that i\'m scary when i\'m angry and some [censored], and how i go crazy, and so my gf\'s mom\'s boyfriend got pissed and kicked me out

it\'s a longer story involved, but that\'s the basics of it

tonight i broke down sobbing on the turnpike, and i have not cried for years, so i felt kind of weird
my heart hurts

so right now, i have an entire cup of tequila (8 oz.) and i get wasted off of one shot (i can\'t hold my liquor well - lightweight)
wish me luck and hope that i don\'t fall down on any sharp edges of the tables in my room

what a shame i don\'t have the balls to put a knife to my wrist

word of advice for everybody: never let your parents get involved with any relationship you take seriously. nothing good will come of it. for those of you that are parents, stay out of your kids lives, as you had wished your parents would have.