So
I received my shipment of SOE(and Chikara too)two days ago.
Yesterday I was in the city and wore SOE. It's still
hard to draw any conclusions. I want to be as objective as possible and from yesterdays interactions I can't tell
much. Although I picked up a girl AND also got one negative reaction. More on this later.
Used like 2/3 of SOE gel
pack. First tried to determine the effect on me myself. Now this one is not easy to describe, but it may be that I
felt more in connection with umm...(nobody in the room except me here)myself and the world. Like maybe more in
piece. Not calmer, but...like more friendly. Then for some time I tried to imagine how I would feel about a girl
wearing SOE(AFAIK some women use it to). It seems I could describe the feelings as "emotional connection, trust,
being close" etc. Maybe some sexual undertones to, but more of the connection stuff. I could feel the same feelings
even thinking about a girl I'm not actually very close with.
So on to the reports. First I catched a taxi to go
where I need to. The driver(a man)seemed a little more friendly and talkative(it's not the first time I see him),
although it may be just because upon entering a car I talked with him and shared some things.
So anyway I go and
meet a woman(business questions). I know her for some time already, she is like 35yo, but very feminine, positive,
smart, sense of style etc(I realized after writing this I kinda start to like her now LOL). Can't draw strong
conclusions about the effects of SOE here too. This women is usually responsive to me as she was yesterday, MAYBE
there was more connection, but I can't measure that.
So after that I go by trolley and there are a lot of people
on it(rush hour). I mark my ticket and there is this older woman standing behind me. She smiles and asks for me to
mark her ticket too. I do that and tell the good thing about so many people here is that no controller can get in to
check the tickets She was in general very positive. Can I call this a hit of SOE? I dunno. I attribute it to my
attitude. Although it seems SOE might have an effect on my attitude, so that's a good thing.
So anyway after I'm
walking on the streets, met my friend for a few minutes(a man too), didn't notice anything out of ordinary.
I
notice women looking at me on the street. Dunno if SOE has an effect on it. They start to look at me from distance,
plus I have catched a cold so I'm wearing clothes covering my neck. As I'm crossing the street I see a
particularly beautiful girl and she keeps eye contact with me. Looks down for a moment and then looks back in the
eyes. I swear she does that again, I'm going to try to kiss her in the middle of the street
But I can
already hardly control myself and the next moment I realize I stopped her in the middle of the street on a crosswalk
and the only reason cars are not going here is because people are walking(no traffic lights).
And now the people
are not walking. In fact the only people in the middle of the street are me and the girl. And surprisingly no car
signals.
Don't remember what we talked about in those few moments(I'm thinking about damn cars here LOL), just
remember how her voice sounds and how her eyes look when she giggles. Those delighting moments make me feel alive
So anyway I see I gotta go, she says see you soon and I go on with my day to day business.
Of course now even more
women glance at me
I catch another taxi, but traffic jams are everywhere and after a few minutes of talking and
joking with the driver(actually a very cool guy)I jump out of the car again.
Some more things to do, some more
people to talk to, nothing out of ordinary happens really and I head towards home.
On the way I visit a coffee, but
it's more like a McDonald's with no waitresses. I feel kinda tired and it's damn hot here(or is it justs me?)and
for some reason my state drops. Plus I get a negative reaction from a girl who is standing over the counter. I
can't really tell the reason, maybe the thing that she didn't understood what I was talking at first, maybe some
others, but she gets a strong bitch shield on even if I was not trying to pick her up or anything. She is like
"yeah" and rolls her eyes. Now you can say she always like that, but she flirted with a guy a few minutes ago.
Now
I was in situations like that before and I know a woman respects you if you get pats that and do not react to it. In
fact, she gets attracted.
But I was just standing here with this "what the hell is happening here?" look in my eyes
and wanted to just get my food and not see anymore cause it hurts.
Plus, who the hell she thinks she is. She is
hardly someone I would loose my head for.
So anyway I just say I love you too
If it matters, quite some time
already passed after the application of SOE.
After lunch I see more beautiful girls and it cheers me up. Since
there is still like half an hour left I just keep exchanging messages with the girl I mention in the post
above.
When the bus comes, there are a lot of people and one girl catches my eye. I am really happy she goes with
the same bus As people are getting in, I try to position myself so I'm either in front of her or sideways so I
can chat her up like "it just happened".
I chat her up and that the dynamics are wrong and it just ends up being
lame. Yes, she smiled AFTER she looked into my eyes and saw this almost screaming look "IT'S A JOKE. EVERYTHING IS
COOL. IT'S A JOKE". My thoughts go like "stay cool, everything is under control, next topic".
But the mind just
goes zzzzzzt BLANK. She gets onto the bus. I go after. Pay for the ticket and look where she goes to sit. It would
be nice if I could sit next to her but not to close if you know what I mean. But it turns out the place is taken and
the only place to sit is next to her. And she just puts her things here.
Not good. However I already started and
there is no way back and even if it looks damn lame now and me a big guy(compared to her)running after can more
likely scare her off than attract her....have you ever seen one of those movies, where a guy is at first running
after a girl and she seems to ignore him at first, thinking he is lame, but then something happens and she sees
*something* in him. Like he stands for himself at last, or maybe turn out to be a really cool guy or may be, as an
extreme example, becomes a super hero
So I'd say we get into bus by me following her, we get out of it after 30
minutes by her following me.
And as the old saying goes be careful what you wish for....
So yeah it
started slowly by her sending indicators of interest and ended with hugs(that was big for me), some kisses and I
think I like her She is cute and warm and sexy.
Too bad she had to go with another bus, but it leaves
things to be desired for, so it has a good side to it to
So where does SOE comes in? I dunno. It was not the
first time I met a girl like this, far from that, it seems my attitude still had TREMENDOUS effect on the results,
both positive and not so(although I would not call them negative as it's always a valuable feedback).
Although it
was still hard for me to accept positive reactions reactions sometimes and I was expecting beforehand negative ones
the other times and sometimes still was arrogant, maybe SOE softened the edges a bit(still more testing needed).
Also the questions helped a lot too.
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