So I received my shipment of SOE(and Chikara too)two days
ago.
Yesterday I was in the city and wore SOE. It's still hard to draw any conclusions. I want to be as objective
as possible and from yesterdays interactions I can't tell much. Although I picked up a girl AND also got one
negative reaction. More on this later.
Used like 2/3 of SOE gel pack. First tried to determine the effect on me
myself. Now this one is not easy to describe, but it may be that I felt more in connection with umm...(nobody in the
room except me here)myself and the world. Like maybe more in piece. Not calmer, but...like more friendly. Then for
some time I tried to imagine how I would feel about a girl wearing SOE(AFAIK some women use it to). It seems I could
describe the feelings as "emotional connection, trust, being close" etc. Maybe some sexual undertones to, but more
of the connection stuff. I could feel the same feelings even thinking about a girl I'm not actually very close
with.
So on to the reports. First I catched a taxi to go where I need to. The driver(a man)seemed a little more
friendly and talkative(it's not the first time I see him), although it may be just because upon entering a car I
talked with him and shared some things.
So anyway I go and meet a woman(business questions). I know her for some
time already, she is like 35yo, but very feminine, positive, smart, sense of style etc(I realized after writing this
I kinda start to like her now LOL). Can't draw strong conclusions about the effects of SOE here too. This women is
usually responsive to me as she was yesterday, MAYBE there was more connection, but I can't measure that.
So after
that I go by trolley and there are a lot of people on it(rush hour). I mark my ticket and there is this older woman
standing behind me. She smiles and asks for me to mark her ticket too. I do that and tell the good thing about so
many people here is that no controller can get in to check the tickets
She was in general very positive. Can I
call this a hit of SOE? I dunno. I attribute it to my attitude. Although it seems SOE might have an effect on my
attitude, so that's a good thing.
So anyway after I'm walking on the streets, met my friend for a few minutes(a
man too), didn't notice anything out of ordinary.
I notice women looking at me on the street. Dunno if SOE has an
effect on it. They start to look at me from distance, plus I have catched a cold so I'm wearing clothes covering my
neck. As I'm crossing the street I see a particularly beautiful girl and she keeps eye contact with me. Looks down
for a moment and then looks back in the eyes. I swear she does that again, I'm going to try to kiss her in the
middle of the street
But I can already hardly control myself and the next moment I realize I stopped her in
the middle of the street on a crosswalk and the only reason cars are not going here is because people are walking(no
traffic lights).
And now the people are not walking. In fact the only people in the middle of the street are me and
the girl. And surprisingly no car signals.
Don't remember what we talked about in those few moments(I'm thinking
about damn cars here LOL), just remember how her voice sounds and how her eyes look when she giggles. Those
delighting moments make me feel alive
So anyway I see I gotta go, she says see you soon and I go on with my day to
day business.
Of course now even more women glance at me
I catch another taxi, but traffic jams are everywhere
and after a few minutes of talking and joking with the driver(actually a very cool guy)I jump out of the car
again.
Some more things to do, some more people to talk to, nothing out of ordinary happens really and I head
towards home.
On the way I visit a coffee, but it's more like a McDonald's with no waitresses. I feel kinda tired
and it's damn hot here(or is it justs me?)and for some reason my state drops. Plus I get a negative reaction from a
girl who is standing over the counter. I can't really tell the reason, maybe the thing that she didn't understood
what I was talking at first, maybe some others, but she gets a strong bitch shield on even if I was not trying to
pick her up or anything. She is like "yeah" and rolls her eyes. Now you can say she always like that, but she
flirted with a guy a few minutes ago.
Now I was in situations like that before and I know a woman respects you if
you get pats that and do not react to it. In fact, she gets attracted.
But I was just standing here with this "what
the hell is happening here?" look in my eyes and wanted to just get my food and not see anymore cause it
hurts.
Plus, who the hell she thinks she is. She is hardly someone I would loose my head for.
So anyway I just say
I love you too
If it matters, quite some time already passed after the application of SOE.
After lunch I see
more beautiful girls and it cheers me up. Since there is still like half an hour left I just keep exchanging
messages with the girl I mention in the post above.
When the bus comes, there are a lot of people and one girl
catches my eye. I am really happy she goes with the same bus
As people are getting in, I try to position myself
so I'm either in front of her or sideways so I can chat her up like "it just happened".
I chat her up and that the
dynamics are wrong and it just ends up being lame. Yes, she smiled AFTER she looked into my eyes and saw this almost
screaming look "IT'S A JOKE. EVERYTHING IS COOL. IT'S A JOKE". My thoughts go like "stay cool, everything is under
control, next topic".
But the mind just goes zzzzzzt BLANK. She gets onto the bus. I go after. Pay for the ticket
and look where she goes to sit. It would be nice if I could sit next to her but not to close if you know what I
mean. But it turns out the place is taken and the only place to sit is next to her. And she just puts her things
here.
Not good. However I already started and there is no way back and even if it looks damn lame now and me a big
guy(compared to her)running after can more likely scare her off than attract her....have you ever seen one of those
movies, where a guy is at first running after a girl and she seems to ignore him at first, thinking he is lame, but
then something happens and she sees *something* in him. Like he stands for himself at last, or maybe turn out to be
a really cool guy or may be, as an extreme example, becomes a super hero
So I'd say we get into bus by me
following her, we get out of it after 30 minutes by her following me.
And as the old saying goes be careful what
you wish for....
So yeah it started slowly by her sending indicators of interest and ended with hugs(that
was big for me), some kisses and I think I like her
She is cute and warm and sexy.
Too bad she had to go
with another bus, but it leaves things to be desired for, so it has a good side to it to
So where does SOE comes
in? I dunno. It was not the first time I met a girl like this, far from that, it seems my attitude still had
TREMENDOUS effect on the results, both positive and not so(although I would not call them negative as it's always a
valuable feedback).
Although it was still hard for me to accept positive reactions reactions sometimes and I was
expecting beforehand negative ones the other times and sometimes still was arrogant, maybe SOE softened the edges a
bit(still more testing needed). Also the questions helped a lot too.
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