A Sack of Puddles
07-28-2004, 01:19 PM
I've been using pheros for about a year, not constantly, but somewhat off an on i.e. only when really
needed.
Just a little about me, for those who care:
18, asian/white, 5'7", 120 lbs,
emo/darkwave/alternative style.
Anyways, to the point.
About a year ago, I was really good friends with a
girl, but never anything more. There was just something that wasn't there. Well, school ended, she went to college
120 miles from where I went. She ended up getting a new cell phone, and I lost contact with her for around a year.
Then one day I somehow got her #, so I call her. One thing led to the next, and eventually I find myself on a date
(well sort of) with her.
Before leaving to pick her up, I apply 1/2 packet of SoE unscented to my arms and neck,
with 3 and 1/2 sprays of chikara to my wrists and neck. So I get to her house, and right away after she sees me, she
gives me this huge hug :blink:. Keep in mind that she hasnt seen me in a year, and things are still a little weird.
Well anyway, we hang out at her house for a while, then we go to a movie. The strange thing was that almost the only
thing she was talking about the entire time was her sexuality! I'd known her pretty well a year ago, and she would
never talk about this before. Did phereos have something to do with this? maybe. We get to the movie, and go
to buy the tickets, I walk up to the counter, ask for two, slap down my credit card, and she suddenly grabs
it:confused: and insists on paying. Another thing she would never do otherwise.I tried to argue with her
about that; failed misreably.:frustrate
Finally at the movie, which, might I add, sucked, she is talking nearly
the whole time about her boyfriend. THIS is the strange part, becuase nothing she was saying made any sense, and she
has an IQ of 130. (don't ask).
She said first how much she loves him, and someday they may even get married.
wonderful. But then, she starts talking about how much she hates the way he is, and all this other negative stuff
about him, and how she could NEVER marry him. Tha's what made no sense. after the movie, her b/f, who by the way is
a n insecure, posessive loser, calls her. We're sitting in my car waiting for the windows to clear from the
humidity. It's 12AM. he's calling from the hospital, he just got beat up by his ex-g/f:whip:
But then what
happened really botherd me. I her her say something like "i'm just with a friend. no, we're not doing anything,
no, that was nothing. I told you, he's a friend." and so on. Obviously, he doesent trust her. she continues to talk
to him for the entire ride home, and every so often I her her say something defending me. Well when we get back,
she's apologizing up and down for him, saying how much she hates that aspect of him and so forth.when I leave she
hugs me again, but this time she doesent want to let go:blink:. when she finally lets go, she 's already asking me
when we can get together again, wants my new phone number, things like that.
The bottom line is, is that when
I was with her, wearing chikara and SoE/U, She was treating me like her b/f, in more way than one:twisted:, and also
complaining about her real b/f.
So now my question...can pheros be a type of 'boyfriend destroyer', or is
this just typical?
--listen to this--
www.saddle-creek.com/sounds/TheFaint_AgendaSuic
ide.mp3 (http://www.saddle-creek.com/sounds/TheFaint_AgendaSuicide.mp3)
needed.
Just a little about me, for those who care:
18, asian/white, 5'7", 120 lbs,
emo/darkwave/alternative style.
Anyways, to the point.
About a year ago, I was really good friends with a
girl, but never anything more. There was just something that wasn't there. Well, school ended, she went to college
120 miles from where I went. She ended up getting a new cell phone, and I lost contact with her for around a year.
Then one day I somehow got her #, so I call her. One thing led to the next, and eventually I find myself on a date
(well sort of) with her.
Before leaving to pick her up, I apply 1/2 packet of SoE unscented to my arms and neck,
with 3 and 1/2 sprays of chikara to my wrists and neck. So I get to her house, and right away after she sees me, she
gives me this huge hug :blink:. Keep in mind that she hasnt seen me in a year, and things are still a little weird.
Well anyway, we hang out at her house for a while, then we go to a movie. The strange thing was that almost the only
thing she was talking about the entire time was her sexuality! I'd known her pretty well a year ago, and she would
never talk about this before. Did phereos have something to do with this? maybe. We get to the movie, and go
to buy the tickets, I walk up to the counter, ask for two, slap down my credit card, and she suddenly grabs
it:confused: and insists on paying. Another thing she would never do otherwise.I tried to argue with her
about that; failed misreably.:frustrate
Finally at the movie, which, might I add, sucked, she is talking nearly
the whole time about her boyfriend. THIS is the strange part, becuase nothing she was saying made any sense, and she
has an IQ of 130. (don't ask).
She said first how much she loves him, and someday they may even get married.
wonderful. But then, she starts talking about how much she hates the way he is, and all this other negative stuff
about him, and how she could NEVER marry him. Tha's what made no sense. after the movie, her b/f, who by the way is
a n insecure, posessive loser, calls her. We're sitting in my car waiting for the windows to clear from the
humidity. It's 12AM. he's calling from the hospital, he just got beat up by his ex-g/f:whip:
But then what
happened really botherd me. I her her say something like "i'm just with a friend. no, we're not doing anything,
no, that was nothing. I told you, he's a friend." and so on. Obviously, he doesent trust her. she continues to talk
to him for the entire ride home, and every so often I her her say something defending me. Well when we get back,
she's apologizing up and down for him, saying how much she hates that aspect of him and so forth.when I leave she
hugs me again, but this time she doesent want to let go:blink:. when she finally lets go, she 's already asking me
when we can get together again, wants my new phone number, things like that.
The bottom line is, is that when
I was with her, wearing chikara and SoE/U, She was treating me like her b/f, in more way than one:twisted:, and also
complaining about her real b/f.
So now my question...can pheros be a type of 'boyfriend destroyer', or is
this just typical?
--listen to this--
www.saddle-creek.com/sounds/TheFaint_AgendaSuic
ide.mp3 (http://www.saddle-creek.com/sounds/TheFaint_AgendaSuicide.mp3)