Joseph
05-01-2004, 01:51 PM
She is a
mature 23 year old student who works at a cafe with me. Likes
80\'s music. She is one of those types who
frequently goofs off, but
she has a wavelength much longer than an airhead.
For the past month since we were
hired, I\'ve worn Alter Ego, typically
applying a small line from the dropper on each shoulder. This is is more
than the recommended \"two drops\", granted, but I wanted to extend the
effect over a six hour period.
So
what\'s going on?
She is responsive, goofs off, touches, and even hugs other people,
yet near me she is
serious and businesslike, avoiding me whenever
necessity doesn\'t require her to work near me.
I\'ve tried
many times to talk to her. Indeed, I am arguably better
looking than several guys there, yet she either briefly
talks to me,
doesn\'t respond, or simply walks away. I am somewhat attracted to her.
I am a bit alpha male,
aware androstenone is a double-edged sword, and
realize the importance of a fun, light demenior whenever wearing
it.
However no matter how well intentioned my efforts to socialize with her,
her attitude remains guarded around
me, and her disapproval has made me
act forced and unnatural around her. However around other female
coworkers
this is not the case at all.
This bothered me, so I dropped the dose of AE down to a single drop behind
my
ears, which causes itching. The effect the next day was negligable,
except for noticing less hostility in my
manager.
Last week I stopped using AE entirely, washed my clothes twice over, and
I\'ve noticed her mood
soften, smiling briefly as she walked by, briefly
touching my shoulder, scratching my sides to move.
One night
we were alone, running the cafe, I step away from the
register toward the expresso machine. That day I put on five
lines of
SOE unscented (I love the scented version, but wanted to reduce the
possibility of the placebo
effect).
Instantly, \"What\'s wrong, feel a little lonely? Want some company, Joseph?\",
she says flatly.
I\'m taken aback, not sure what to say, and simply smile.
During another workday, she makes another
semi-loaded comment...
Manager: \"Hey buddy, go on break. Get something to eat..\"
Me: \"Nah, I\'m not
hungry..\"
Her: \"Strong man..\"
Me: \"Why, thank you..\"
A few hours later, I accidentally bump into her,
and she remarks
indignantly: \"There is plenty of room to get through, you don\'t
have to bump into me..\".
As if that was intentional.
\"I\'m sorry, accident..\", suddenly feeling like a complete idiot.
A few days
ago was her birthday, she rung up a cookie, her credit
card didn\'t go through, which she was pissed off about,
and I said,
\"Happy birthday\", bought it for her, and gave her a warm smile. We
conversed about schools; she
tells me where she is going, and it
turns out we want to major in the same thing.
Still, after three minutes,
the urge to relieve the tension of being
around me kicks in. What irritates me is being away from me is a
\"relief\". I am very friendly and outgoing, and it is downright
insulting if not confounding.
I\'m
convinced we\'ll find a unified field theory before
understanding women, but common sense says she simply
does
not like me.
Joseph
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mature 23 year old student who works at a cafe with me. Likes
80\'s music. She is one of those types who
frequently goofs off, but
she has a wavelength much longer than an airhead.
For the past month since we were
hired, I\'ve worn Alter Ego, typically
applying a small line from the dropper on each shoulder. This is is more
than the recommended \"two drops\", granted, but I wanted to extend the
effect over a six hour period.
So
what\'s going on?
She is responsive, goofs off, touches, and even hugs other people,
yet near me she is
serious and businesslike, avoiding me whenever
necessity doesn\'t require her to work near me.
I\'ve tried
many times to talk to her. Indeed, I am arguably better
looking than several guys there, yet she either briefly
talks to me,
doesn\'t respond, or simply walks away. I am somewhat attracted to her.
I am a bit alpha male,
aware androstenone is a double-edged sword, and
realize the importance of a fun, light demenior whenever wearing
it.
However no matter how well intentioned my efforts to socialize with her,
her attitude remains guarded around
me, and her disapproval has made me
act forced and unnatural around her. However around other female
coworkers
this is not the case at all.
This bothered me, so I dropped the dose of AE down to a single drop behind
my
ears, which causes itching. The effect the next day was negligable,
except for noticing less hostility in my
manager.
Last week I stopped using AE entirely, washed my clothes twice over, and
I\'ve noticed her mood
soften, smiling briefly as she walked by, briefly
touching my shoulder, scratching my sides to move.
One night
we were alone, running the cafe, I step away from the
register toward the expresso machine. That day I put on five
lines of
SOE unscented (I love the scented version, but wanted to reduce the
possibility of the placebo
effect).
Instantly, \"What\'s wrong, feel a little lonely? Want some company, Joseph?\",
she says flatly.
I\'m taken aback, not sure what to say, and simply smile.
During another workday, she makes another
semi-loaded comment...
Manager: \"Hey buddy, go on break. Get something to eat..\"
Me: \"Nah, I\'m not
hungry..\"
Her: \"Strong man..\"
Me: \"Why, thank you..\"
A few hours later, I accidentally bump into her,
and she remarks
indignantly: \"There is plenty of room to get through, you don\'t
have to bump into me..\".
As if that was intentional.
\"I\'m sorry, accident..\", suddenly feeling like a complete idiot.
A few days
ago was her birthday, she rung up a cookie, her credit
card didn\'t go through, which she was pissed off about,
and I said,
\"Happy birthday\", bought it for her, and gave her a warm smile. We
conversed about schools; she
tells me where she is going, and it
turns out we want to major in the same thing.
Still, after three minutes,
the urge to relieve the tension of being
around me kicks in. What irritates me is being away from me is a
\"relief\". I am very friendly and outgoing, and it is downright
insulting if not confounding.
I\'m
convinced we\'ll find a unified field theory before
understanding women, but common sense says she simply
does
not like me.
Joseph
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